So I think that it's curious how our minds change as we grow older. I feel like as I've grown I've become more aware of the thoughts, opinions, and arguments of those who surround me. I can't say that that's a terrible thing, in some cases, but it makes me wonder how strong my sense of morals and opinions really are when sized up against the world. I once wrote an entire blog about how I was completely pro-life, and that was only about a year ago. Now here I am approximately 365 days later, and I see it as a right that empowers women to be women and to control their own bodies. In my own sense I'll continue to be pro-life, but I also understand more than I did a year ago. I can't really point fingers unless I've been in that position, and I haven't. Then the whole religion thing is something entirely different. I used to enjoy discussing it, and now I'm just so exhausted by the topic. This along with weed and different sorts of drugs. I used to cringe at the mere thought of them, and it's just not like that anymore. I don't do them, but it's become second nature to know people who do, and I'm okay with that as long as they are. I've noticed from the sidelines that this town has this whole hush-hushed (or not so hush-hushed) war going on between people who do drugs and people who don't. It's rather silly if you ask me. I don't know why it matters so much. We're all free to make our own decisions, and I think that it's awkward to make up websites or post or say hateful things in opposition to others whose choices, stories, or motives we may not even know or understand.
I don't know if this is just me becoming the woman I was meant to become all along or if I seriously have some peer-pressure issues. I've just decided that sticking my nose in others' business all the time trying to convince them that they should live their lives a certain way is such bullshit. I don't know what comes next, and if this is the only life that I have, I want it to be worth it. If I spent more time picking out the positives about people rather than getting irritated about their tiny quirks, I feel like I'd be smiling a lot more often. That's really what I love to do. Lots of people tell me that every time they're around me I'm either grinning or laughing, and that just means everything to me. I don't want to be known as the cynical bitch who couldn't find humor in anything. I want to be known for being able to find something cheerful within disaster. If I can't bring myself to grin and bear it, then I need a good kick in the rump. :] I just really love happiness.
I suppose that this is all sort of random, and I don't know if I got anything out of it, but here it is none the less.
xoxo
1. "Magazines"- Brand New
2. "Runaways"-Anberlin
3. "Use Your Love"-Katy Perry
4. "Got Money"-Wayne =]
5. "Just Dance"-Lady GaGa
6. "Rocky Raccoon"- The Beatles
7. "Pornogratherapy"-Every Time I Die
Cool Down Songs
8. "Errand Run"- As Cities Burn
9. "Imagine"-John Lennon
10. "Make You Feel My Love"-Adele
Now I'm off to get my Sex and the City on. Good night.
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